Courage
2010, for me, can be encapsulated in the word Courage.
This was the year I stopped running from God. This was the year I stopped denying my desire for Him and the year I stopped blaming Him. This was the year I stopped trying to make Him fit into safe, New Age-y catchalls like Energy or Love.
And let me tell you, this turning towards, this embracing and forgiving, this accepting and believing took a lot of Courage.
Courage to go to the “swampland of the soul,” and deal with the un-pretty: shame I’ve held onto for 15 years, wounds, disappointments, fears.
I’m proud of this past year’s journey in dealing with the Dark and the Divine head on. And I know it’s not over. But because of the courage it took to turn toward, embrace, forgive, accept and believe in a perfect God, this year I also learned more about what it means to turn toward, embrace, forgive, accept and believe in my imperfect self.
And the word that I hope encapsulates 2011? Joy. The joy that comes from letting this kind of courage be the base of who I am, and the lightness and ease of how I reach out to others.
Want to reflect on 2010 with us as we wind down the year? All of December I’ll be participating in Reverb 10, an annual event and online initiative to “reflect on your year and manifest what’s next.” There some amazing women like Kaileen Elise and GwenBell steering the way and you are invited to take part. Check it out at www.reverb10.com and follow along on twitter with #reverb10.
Today’s prompt:
December 1 One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you? (Gwen Bell )
